Barely Breathing

Today, right now, at this very minute, very second, I feel as if it is imposible that I am existing, that I am living, that I am breathing without him.

I miss him so much it hurts.

I want this pain to go away. To stay away.

I long for what I wish I had (even though it was different that what we actually had).

It was a fantasy...but I still want that fantasy.



'Barely Breathing"
Duncan Sheik

Well I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline
when I kiss away your tears
you really had me going wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, that you were so completely torn
Well, it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There's not much to examine, nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious if you have to ask me why I say good-bye...

cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay...

Everyone keeps asking "what's it all about?"
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway... I'm thinking it over anyway-ay-ay...

I've come to find I may never know
Your changing mind is it friend or foe?
I rise above or sink below
With every time you come and go
Please don't come and go

cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay

But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I'm thinking it over anyway-ay-ay...

I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear