A little test I need to take

Well readers, I have been missing in action because I've been studying for this little test.

Called:

THE VIRGINIA BAR EXAM.

The test is in 2 days. I'm stressed. I'm tired. I'm miserable.

And no body seems to understand. Let me correct myself, the world of non-attorneys does not seem to get it.

After all, "It's just a test."

For the first time in my life, I'm feeling this solidarity with anyone who is, or ever has been an attorney. And I feel this dissociation with non-attorneys.

I do not like it.

My first cousin, who was like my sister growing up, got married yesterday.

In California.

And my family gave me a lot of slack for not going. They do not seem to find having to take a test on Tuesday a good reason for missing a wedding (on the other coast) on Saturday.

They don't seem to understand:

IT IS NOT JUST A TEST.

But what is it?

When I figure it out, I'll let you know. For now, I'll suffer in silence, knowing that all attorneys who came before me suffered silently to.

And the rest of the world may never understand.