Unwelcome Visator

I have had an unwelcome visator lately
She calls herself depression

I call her lonliness
Desperation
Dispair
Anger
Fear.

She is dark

She sucks up my energy
She sucks up my creativity
She sucks up my zest for life
She sucks my hope.

With her here, I feel alone.
Really alone
I do not remember ever feeling alive

I feel as if THIS is real life
And any happiness I may have ever felt in life is just an illussion.

An illusion
An illusion

It's all just an illusion.