Exercise kick-off

I am not making much fanfare about thiis in my "real" life,
Partly because it is a private thing
And partly because people who always talk about this annoy the shit out of me.

Today was the first day I went back to the gym.

I was gym queen prior to law school.

Then law school happened. I got divorced dsuring first semester. I got depressed.

My dress size went from an 8 to 10 to 12 to 14 then back down to 12, where it has stubbornly stuck.

Going back is hard. It almost harder then going for first time.

I feel defeated. Like I had the body I wanted, pissed it away, now have to

START OVER!

I met a man, randomly, on CRaig's list a few days ago. We realized, that by complete coincidence, we were at our community lake at the SAME TIME that day. We started to figure out who eachother was.

He: I saw I gorl in pink bikini, I think someone called her Jen. And a woman in black bikini to left of ligeguard stand who was really hot. And I saw a girl in a pink one-piece. I remember thinking, if she just worked out she'd be a real hottie.

That was me!

So, as if my ego was not bruised enough, I had another Match.com date Monday. We actually hit it off. But we started talking exercise.

He: You are very pretty. You'd be a bona fide hottie if you just worked out. I hope you are not hurt by that.

My ego is completely bruised.

Have bruised lemons? Make lemonade.

So, I did 45 minutes cardio and 45 minutes weights.

Maybe STARTING OVER will not be so bad afterall.